On the verge of losing his battle with depression, Jim leaves his home in Alaska and returns to California where his parents, brother, kids, and ex-wife all live. He also seeks out clinical help there while tripping through all his familial reunions. Jim’s bipolar disorder is front and center in this story, almost a character in itself. The .44 that Jim always keeps within reach looms over every part of his life and is always right there, making its presence known, just like his illness. If you would like to sit in a front row seat to witness someone in the throes of a mental health crisis, you cannot do much better than this book in all its pain and relentless torment. It is a powerful portrayal of mental illness.